A Love For Words

-Robin Scherbatsky

then it’s sign from god. 

Don’t question it

Don’t dwell with it

Live with it

Life teaches us that not every day is gleam 

nor is it bright and always shiny 

life teaches us lessons 

from how to walk 

when to speak up

and how to deal with a broken heart 

there is nothing in life that is given to us

that we can not handle 

trials and tests are not created to hurt us 

or show us what we don’t know 

tests are created to show to ourselves 

that we know what were actually talking about 

to not only instill fear if we do it wrong 

but to reward us when we do it right 

Inside of me, it’s a battle 

mind and heart are always constantly fighting 

one says one thing and the other another 

and don’t get me started about when the other mind takes over 

but if you can make it through the night 

light shines again 

and not to forget what we learn 

because if you have those nights

those dark feelings 

those sad feelings 

they only serve as reminders

that it wasn’t meant to be

so I don’t dwell 

I’m just reminded

Reminded that I’m better off

and that deep down I do miss

but only cause I’m human

but more than anything 

I’m more happy and stronger because of it 

This is something old, something constant 

when your fighting with yourself it’s something hard to get rid of 

but i always tell myself 

there’s a reason for everything

if it’s meant to be, it will be

something great must be on it’s way

cause truly speaking 

that’s what I really feel

The question recently came up of what do I truly regret in life. When the moment came, only one thought came up, and that was that I regretted coming into college with a girlfriend. I don’t know why but that’s always the first thought that pops up in my head when I hear the word regret. Like how much really would my life be different if I went into college free and single. Would I have chose a different major? Would I have hooked up with different girls? Would I have become a different person?……. I guess really with that last question it’s where everything comes into place. When regret comes into play, I think wow if I didn’t have a g/f, I would have had so much more time to meet more people, to hook up with so many girls, party more, be more social, etc etc. But then I think about the person I would have become. I could be that guy who every single post on tumblr is about. I could be that guy that fucks every girl over and not give a fuck. Sure that may sound great, from a guy’s perspective, but in my perspective, that’s not right. I don’t wanna be that guy. Honestly, I like who I am now. I’m nerdy, I’m a little nieve, I’m still super shy, but I have confidence in myself. It’s a very weird place. Let’s get this straight. I am a man. I still have urges. And I still want to fuck every moving thing on this earth. But second, I’m not like every man. I want something more, something special, something meaningful. Like yeah, I talk a big game, I would fuck her, I would do this and that, but when it comes down to it, I don’t think I would. I would rather get to know you, have a nice chat, maybe grab a movie and a meal, and get to know you. Sex and all that would come later if it ever got to that point. Nowadays though I feel like all that shit is skipped. No one cares to get to know someone, we all just want to fuck. And I get it. I really do. We have urges and temptations, and that’s all anyone ever talks about, but where did getting to know somebody become so lame? Like it’s so much simpler to be hot and attractive to just fuck a girl, but to actually get inside her mind and her thoughts is such a lame thing. Is it my fault I would rather get to know the girl before I stick my dick inside her? Like what the fuck? It seems all it takes now is to be sexy and attractive, TALK a good game, and it’s enough to be get into someones pants. Seriously it’s that easy. But I suppose I’m weird. I rather talk. I rather kiss. I rather get to know you, before I fuck you. But I digress, the question is do I regret anything? The answer is no. I think about it now, and really let it soak, and no I do not regret anything. I like who I am, I like my values, my standards, and I trust my instincts. If I were to change my past, I would be just like every joe schmoe, I would be another dick, and I would not care for a thing. And yeah call me soft, call me stupid because I care about people, but if you think that, than your obviously wrong for me. I’m single because I choose to be. Not because I want to be. Cause you know what, I know I’m a catch, I’m not cocky, but I know I’m a good guy. I know I would treat my girl better than anyone ever has. I know that. I cherish and value a girl like she’s supposed too and I know the real meaning of being in a relationship. I’ve dealt with pain, sorrow, depression, I know it all. And it only makes me appreciate it that much more. So regret nothing, do everything, if it happens, it happens, but more importantly, be happy with who you are, accept your past, and grow from it.